I might be in a broody mood these days, maybe its the season change, maybe its fatigue, I’m not sure. But hear me out, I am not working in a field that I am passionate about. I often feel like it’s just a job to pay the bills. I don’t want to spend this whole blog complaining about this area of my life, because I do see God’s hand and blessing in it.

What had me thinking about dreams in my own heart was this scripture from Ephesians 3:20 (AMP) “Now to Him who is able to [carry out His purpose and] do superabundantly more than all that we dare ask or think [infinitely beyond our greatest prayers, hopes, or dreams], according to His power that is at work within us,…”

I always read this scripture and think about big lofty dreams, like a bigger home, being debt free, working in international development or maybe nursing, or a fulltime artist, etc. What can and will God do to fulfill MY dreams for myself? Because that’s what they are.

But the verses before this tried and tested feel-good verse about my future was jumping off the page at me as I read this week:

Ephesians 14-19(NIV): For this reason I kneel before the Father, ¹⁵ from whom every family^[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. ¹⁶ I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, ¹⁷ so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, ¹⁸ may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, ¹⁹ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God….and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God!”

Could it be that I’ve been reading this scripture wrong this whole time? Although I do believe God gives us specific dreams, yes. And I don’t want anyone to think I’m killing any dreams you may have. But it was just terribly wonderfully obvious to me that the main prayer in Ephesians 3, was that Christ dwell in (our) hearts through faith, that we may know the breadth of His love, and lastly to be filled to the measure God’s fullness. God is after us to become like Him. But we could never dream or fathom how to attain this. We need God, to do immeasurably more than we ask, think or imagine to grow us up to maturity in Christ, so that when Jesus returns, He beholds a beautiful spotless, mature and perfect bride.

I may be having some feelings of sadness this week because now that I see this, I’m accountable to it. As I thought about it, I don’t really want anything else in my life that will distract me or take me off course from becoming mature in Christ.

So as I sit with this, I’ve been challenged to see and realize, that the desire of my heart is finally, because this took years, to become mature in Christ. To be filled to the measure of God’s fullness, in a way that is more than I could ask, think or imagine. To God be all the glory forever.