A few months ago I got sick, baby fever sick. If I spoke with any medical professional they would all largely agree that having another baby at my age would be absolute insanity. I had so many pregnancy and postpartum complications, some pulmonary embolisms 8 months postpartum, that they knew it would be massively risky.

Yet, I yearned. For the purpose of the squeemish reading this, be warned! This may be TMI for you.

I had experienced some major menstruation problems that caused me to be severely anemic. This required iron transfusions and ultimately, a decision to try various methods to decrease my bleeding. But after attempting/exhausting all options, a hysterectomy was in the cards for me.

And I mourned. I mourned that feeling of not quite being done with having babies yet. I mourned that season of my life coming to an abrupt end. And although I know how blessed I am to have two incredible and beautiful children, I miss the excitement and challenge of carrying and having a baby.

But its a new season. Like all new seasons, there’s a bit of growing pains. These growing pains are a bit of a hesitation, a resistance to the changes being forced on me by external factors that are not in my control.

But this new season, oh my goodness. It has brought a peace that passes all understanding and a deeper knowing that I know that God has THE PERFECT plan for me and my family. And these plans are His best plans. And I trust Him more completely in this.

For that, I am thankful for my successful hysterectomy and a new beginning without all the pregnancy tests 😉

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